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Saturday, January 24, 2004
Thursday, January 22, 2004
this is for you.
< insert>.....Lately i can't stop thinking about spaghetti. ahah i know that sounds so stupid but spaghetti is so... symbolic and special. And everytime i think about it i can't help but smile. Making spaghetti together was always so ... happy. I hope you never make spaghetti with anyone as good as how we made it. If it happens that i totally forget about you and if i had to remember you in one way, and one way only - it would be in the kitchen making "our" spaghetti.
ngeharhr
so our special ingrediants for lovers who are lovers of spaghetti -
olives, olive juice, red wine, mushrooms, sugar, oregano, LOTS of garlic. and the most special of special ingrediants... wait for it .... L O V E.. negarha
the red wine is only put in minutes before you turn the heat off. and the sugar (only a little bit) is the very last thing added. (except parsley for colour and parmesan cheese). (Love has to be constantly mixed into the dish, or else it will taste like crap) (what an eliquent choice of words) :P
I don't think i'll ever have spaghetti as good as ours.
ngeharra im such a sucker. kill me now. please..............< /insert>
< insert>.....Lately i can't stop thinking about spaghetti. ahah i know that sounds so stupid but spaghetti is so... symbolic and special. And everytime i think about it i can't help but smile. Making spaghetti together was always so ... happy. I hope you never make spaghetti with anyone as good as how we made it. If it happens that i totally forget about you and if i had to remember you in one way, and one way only - it would be in the kitchen making "our" spaghetti.
ngeharhr
so our special ingrediants for lovers who are lovers of spaghetti -
olives, olive juice, red wine, mushrooms, sugar, oregano, LOTS of garlic. and the most special of special ingrediants... wait for it .... L O V E.. negarha
the red wine is only put in minutes before you turn the heat off. and the sugar (only a little bit) is the very last thing added. (except parsley for colour and parmesan cheese). (Love has to be constantly mixed into the dish, or else it will taste like crap) (what an eliquent choice of words) :P
I don't think i'll ever have spaghetti as good as ours.
ngeharra im such a sucker. kill me now. please..............< /insert>
Friday, January 16, 2004
What the hell was last night all about?
I'm so confused? And frustrated! UGH
It's over, man. You told me so, so deal with it because i sure as hell am.
I'm so confused? And frustrated! UGH
It's over, man. You told me so, so deal with it because i sure as hell am.
Thursday, January 15, 2004
its happened again, motherfucking exbf!!!!!!!!!!!!
BYE GUYS - im moving!
I was serious about NOT linking me!
If you want me, email me your worth.
BYE GUYS - im moving!
I was serious about NOT linking me!
If you want me, email me your worth.
I keep getting flash backs of things that happened at Byron Bay that i failed to mention in my entry. It must've been a crazy week if i'm just remember things now! A week of alcohol can't have been good for my body.
Especially after loosing my virginity to Long Island Ice Tea that Sarah concocted for me. YUMM!! I lerve Rum. And i was drinking it while playing "Have You Ever", drinking to EVERY statement (except getting off on sucking toes HAHA). I think that explains why i couldn't remember that night. Long Island Ice Tea, although delish, is EVIL!!
And the local EVIL VOODOO dolls, Terrance and Gertrude (formally known as Philomena) that we befrended but it turned out they were evil Chucky-like and were found at obscure places of our holiday house like sitting on the stairs or outside Sarahs and Christies Room and on the dining room table with a butchers knife?!?! And Terrance was found hung on the door near the patio. Scary evil evil dolls.
And Sarah giving me a massive bruise on my arm when she beat the shit out of me when i scared her after coming out of the bathroom.
And.. on NYE when the fireworks were going off..
Christie to Beth: This is the best, But... there's one thing missing, Beth.
Beth: Pills? Pills! We need more pills!
Christie: I meant our boyfriends.
Beth: Oh yeah, that too.
*wonders off in never-never land*
hahahahhaha
Oh man, ahah other stuff happened. thats all i remember for now. bwahaha.
I'll put up photos when everyone develops theirs. My camera broke so i couldnt take my own :(
Oh yeah and Meet Bob, my new toyboy! A work-mate came back from his Russian holiday with his promise to bring me back a nice Russian man.
Russian, yes. Nice... hrm.
he definately is fun though. :P
Especially after loosing my virginity to Long Island Ice Tea that Sarah concocted for me. YUMM!! I lerve Rum. And i was drinking it while playing "Have You Ever", drinking to EVERY statement (except getting off on sucking toes HAHA). I think that explains why i couldn't remember that night. Long Island Ice Tea, although delish, is EVIL!!
And the local EVIL VOODOO dolls, Terrance and Gertrude (formally known as Philomena) that we befrended but it turned out they were evil Chucky-like and were found at obscure places of our holiday house like sitting on the stairs or outside Sarahs and Christies Room and on the dining room table with a butchers knife?!?! And Terrance was found hung on the door near the patio. Scary evil evil dolls.
And Sarah giving me a massive bruise on my arm when she beat the shit out of me when i scared her after coming out of the bathroom.
And.. on NYE when the fireworks were going off..
Christie to Beth: This is the best, But... there's one thing missing, Beth.
Beth: Pills? Pills! We need more pills!
Christie: I meant our boyfriends.
Beth: Oh yeah, that too.
*wonders off in never-never land*
hahahahhaha
Oh man, ahah other stuff happened. thats all i remember for now. bwahaha.
I'll put up photos when everyone develops theirs. My camera broke so i couldnt take my own :(
Oh yeah and Meet Bob, my new toyboy! A work-mate came back from his Russian holiday with his promise to bring me back a nice Russian man.
Russian, yes. Nice... hrm.
he definately is fun though. :P
work - home - chat - sleep. what i life i live. jealous much? haha
Last night hung out at Jammos house watching DVDS with her and Erikar. Watched Legally Blonde 2. "WHOS READY TO DISCHARGE!?" (hahahaha) and Phone Booth again (ugh - lame.) "..But a ringing phone has to be answered.." thats so stupid. No it doesnt?
Had words with the girls and asking Erikar if she was thinking of getting back with Dennis. I hope not - Dennis is bad news when it comes to girlfriends. I wonder what game he is trying to play this time. And as if i wouldnt tell Erikar all the stuff he is gets up to and about other girls (ie. his gf, Rosa) and at the same time saying that he is trying to get back with her. I told myself that i wouldnt get in the middle of it again, but its Erikar, my oldest friend - i'm not going to let him fuck her over again, not after what happened last time. I have obligations! Damn Dennis - you try to help him out, but ugh. And you think he is changing, but then he does something so stupiid all hope goes flying out the door. I don't want to get in the middle again, but i'm already here. I know im doing the right thing by telling Erikar, there is no doubt. Now to deal with Dennis. Erikars a smart girl, i hope she doesn't get sucked into his little game again.
I hate having to explain to people whats wrong with my skin. I already know people look at me wierd and thats ok - because i am wierd looking, but to ask me. it's so frustrating!! Just DONT LOOK AT ME! I AM A FREAK!!!! I ALREADY KNOW!!!
Anyhooo - ill blog more later.
Last night hung out at Jammos house watching DVDS with her and Erikar. Watched Legally Blonde 2. "WHOS READY TO DISCHARGE!?" (hahahaha) and Phone Booth again (ugh - lame.) "..But a ringing phone has to be answered.." thats so stupid. No it doesnt?
Had words with the girls and asking Erikar if she was thinking of getting back with Dennis. I hope not - Dennis is bad news when it comes to girlfriends. I wonder what game he is trying to play this time. And as if i wouldnt tell Erikar all the stuff he is gets up to and about other girls (ie. his gf, Rosa) and at the same time saying that he is trying to get back with her. I told myself that i wouldnt get in the middle of it again, but its Erikar, my oldest friend - i'm not going to let him fuck her over again, not after what happened last time. I have obligations! Damn Dennis - you try to help him out, but ugh. And you think he is changing, but then he does something so stupiid all hope goes flying out the door. I don't want to get in the middle again, but i'm already here. I know im doing the right thing by telling Erikar, there is no doubt. Now to deal with Dennis. Erikars a smart girl, i hope she doesn't get sucked into his little game again.
I hate having to explain to people whats wrong with my skin. I already know people look at me wierd and thats ok - because i am wierd looking, but to ask me. it's so frustrating!! Just DONT LOOK AT ME! I AM A FREAK!!!! I ALREADY KNOW!!!
Anyhooo - ill blog more later.
Monday, January 12, 2004
I've got a fabulous idea! To emphasis the concept of new memories and a fresh life for all things karen, i've decided to purchase a digicam.
Lets get deep - real deep.
With this, i'm going to take photos of everything and everyone who makes me happy - who makes me, well.. me. And hopefully my love for life will once again be rekindled and inturn, love for myself. Hows that grab ya? Although im finding this kind of ironic; cameras take still shots of memories - things that were. I think it could possibly help me to realise what life has to offer me and be constantly reminded that it's not all that bad really. It's really quiet beautiful, I just need to get a move on and really focus on ME for a change. To heal, to grow and to be better. (ugh how corny).
So - empty your pockets kaz, 'cause you're going to be broke as a joke. But thats ok. I can live with that.
Lets get deep - real deep.
With this, i'm going to take photos of everything and everyone who makes me happy - who makes me, well.. me. And hopefully my love for life will once again be rekindled and inturn, love for myself. Hows that grab ya? Although im finding this kind of ironic; cameras take still shots of memories - things that were. I think it could possibly help me to realise what life has to offer me and be constantly reminded that it's not all that bad really. It's really quiet beautiful, I just need to get a move on and really focus on ME for a change. To heal, to grow and to be better. (ugh how corny).
So - empty your pockets kaz, 'cause you're going to be broke as a joke. But thats ok. I can live with that.
Sunday, January 11, 2004
i've been inspired again. Though i've always known this, why can't i just do it?
Kudos to a ringo-ian.
There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you
this - when people can walk away from you: let them walk. Don't you try
to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you,
caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. Your
destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The bible said that, they
came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for
us. For had they been for us, no doubt they would have continued with
us. [1 John 2:19]
People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not
joined to you, you can get super glue and you can't make them stay. Let
them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person, it just means
that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when
people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to
raise the dead. You've got to know when it's over.
hrm..
Kudos to a ringo-ian.
There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you
this - when people can walk away from you: let them walk. Don't you try
to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you,
caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. Your
destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The bible said that, they
came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for
us. For had they been for us, no doubt they would have continued with
us. [1 John 2:19]
People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not
joined to you, you can get super glue and you can't make them stay. Let
them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person, it just means
that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when
people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to
raise the dead. You've got to know when it's over.
hrm..
Wow. Its Sunday and im not hung over, though i'm still recovering from this stupid sickness. Damn you Cheeky Monkeys! Damn You!
I don't feel good. Not in the sick way of not feeling good - but i don't feel ... happy?
I think it's been a while since i've really talked to anyone about the him situation. I'm trying to block it out and just go on my merry way. And it works momentarily but now i feel like i'm not even progressing. stuck in this rut and really struggling to get out of this black hole. I need new memories so all the old ones can go flying out the other ear. It's not like i want him back, it's not like it was a solid relationship and it's not like it was really love anyway? The whole relationship was based on insecurities and it went on for too fucking long. I'm still slapping myself for letting it go for long long. Still slapping myself for being so weak and being so stupid! I'm seriously so tierd of being here. I just want him to understand, and he still doesn't get it. So fucking THICK.
to know exactly how im feeling - download Evanescence - My Immortal
FAST FORWARD LIFE, FAST FORWARD!!!!
And really - what do i have to offer to anyone else anyway? Why would anyone want me? I'm freakishly short, revoltingly fugly, i have a foul mouth, i drink too much, i'm stout, my skin looks diseased, and i only pick up when im drunk and when "they're" drunk .... maybe i should move to America. They're all freaks there anyway. Someones bound to love me. maybe a tree. hahaha.
So I need to learn to love myself, gain confidence - how the hell do i do that? Where the hell do i start? Who am i, joddammit?! Your guess is seriously as good as mine.
I think i have Bi-Polars. haha
I need to get away again.
Hoo-Haaaa. Kaz is a spaz.
I don't feel good. Not in the sick way of not feeling good - but i don't feel ... happy?
I think it's been a while since i've really talked to anyone about the him situation. I'm trying to block it out and just go on my merry way. And it works momentarily but now i feel like i'm not even progressing. stuck in this rut and really struggling to get out of this black hole. I need new memories so all the old ones can go flying out the other ear. It's not like i want him back, it's not like it was a solid relationship and it's not like it was really love anyway? The whole relationship was based on insecurities and it went on for too fucking long. I'm still slapping myself for letting it go for long long. Still slapping myself for being so weak and being so stupid! I'm seriously so tierd of being here. I just want him to understand, and he still doesn't get it. So fucking THICK.
to know exactly how im feeling - download Evanescence - My Immortal
FAST FORWARD LIFE, FAST FORWARD!!!!
And really - what do i have to offer to anyone else anyway? Why would anyone want me? I'm freakishly short, revoltingly fugly, i have a foul mouth, i drink too much, i'm stout, my skin looks diseased, and i only pick up when im drunk and when "they're" drunk .... maybe i should move to America. They're all freaks there anyway. Someones bound to love me. maybe a tree. hahaha.
So I need to learn to love myself, gain confidence - how the hell do i do that? Where the hell do i start? Who am i, joddammit?! Your guess is seriously as good as mine.
I think i have Bi-Polars. haha
I need to get away again.
Hoo-Haaaa. Kaz is a spaz.
Just got back from WONDERLAND. Teehee i had fun exerting all my hyper activeness and energy so much so that i am buggered and can't keep my eyes open :) I'm re-learning the joys of good, clean fun and i lerve it. and I think i'm seeing a speckle of the old karen. :D
T'was I, Erikar, Jammo, Al, Den and Kris. Den scored us a dragon and a mushroom playing basketball. I named my mushroom, Shrooms. He's cool. And he spins when he flies in the air.
Didn't really get the chance to go on many rides, but that was A.O.K with me. We pirateshipped it. HAHA and River rampaged it (which resulted in ALOT of sexual innuendo about being "wet", Kris! haha). and Flying chaired it (soo free). and carouselled it (i was too tall to ride a horse? Me? Too Tall?). thats all.
i feel... "happy", but.. empty.
..i just want time to fast forward....
T'was I, Erikar, Jammo, Al, Den and Kris. Den scored us a dragon and a mushroom playing basketball. I named my mushroom, Shrooms. He's cool. And he spins when he flies in the air.
Didn't really get the chance to go on many rides, but that was A.O.K with me. We pirateshipped it. HAHA and River rampaged it (which resulted in ALOT of sexual innuendo about being "wet", Kris! haha). and Flying chaired it (soo free). and carouselled it (i was too tall to ride a horse? Me? Too Tall?). thats all.
i feel... "happy", but.. empty.
..i just want time to fast forward....
Friday, January 09, 2004
This is an "i'm bored, so i'll blog, blog."
I stayed home today because i was sick. Yes - I'm still sick from Cheeky Monkeys at Byron. Infact, i've been sick all week (took Monday off as well) and yesterday i went home early because i spewed at work. charming.
That was by far the most seediest club i have EVER set foot in. *coughingfit* and i guess chain smoking the entire week hasn't helped either, because im hacking up some classic gollies. charming again.
My conversation about God with Kris the other day was eerie. Eerie in the sense that i felt... open and... relieved... and watched - yes watched! It felt like someone was looking over me and i freaked out. I still need to do alot more thinking but i've got respect for christianity now. whereas before i never really did understand.
The past couple of days i've see the following - Whale Rider, Dancer in the Dark, Lost in Translation. Good Will Hunting (for the 5th time) and Kill Bill (for the 4th time).All GREAT movies! I suggest you all watch them. Although Dancer in the Dark wasnt as great as i was expecting (Christy was raving about it), but it was so sad, and powerful. I love movies where i come out ... feeling.
friday five time
What one thing are you most looking forward to . . .
1. ...today?
getting better
2. ...over the next week?
wonderland tomorrow
3. ...this year?
travelling
4. ...over the next five years?
love
5. ...for the rest of your life?
family and getting old
ugh. boring
Im staying home on the first friday of the new year. great for my pocket, but crap other wise.
I've been sitting infront of the computer ALL day not doing anything remotely productive - and i want to get off now but i want to listen to all these albums (Jill Scott, John Butler Trio, Bjork, Musiq). I only have mp3s and my room is on the other side of the house and i cant listen dammit. Looks like i'll be here for a while.
I'm getting fat again. My weight is doing all sorts of circus tricks. Need to stay consistant. Size 8 size 8 size 8 size 8 size 8 - it calls me.
Wow. 2 straight weeks of no communication. Thats gotta be a record right there. And i know he's not thinking of me because he has his "distraction". Damn him. And these dreams! These dreams i've had every single friggin night for about a week. UGH!!! GO AWAY MOTHER FUCKERRRRR. JUST FUCK OFF!!
eheh ok. Bye
I stayed home today because i was sick. Yes - I'm still sick from Cheeky Monkeys at Byron. Infact, i've been sick all week (took Monday off as well) and yesterday i went home early because i spewed at work. charming.
That was by far the most seediest club i have EVER set foot in. *coughingfit* and i guess chain smoking the entire week hasn't helped either, because im hacking up some classic gollies. charming again.
My conversation about God with Kris the other day was eerie. Eerie in the sense that i felt... open and... relieved... and watched - yes watched! It felt like someone was looking over me and i freaked out. I still need to do alot more thinking but i've got respect for christianity now. whereas before i never really did understand.
The past couple of days i've see the following - Whale Rider, Dancer in the Dark, Lost in Translation. Good Will Hunting (for the 5th time) and Kill Bill (for the 4th time).All GREAT movies! I suggest you all watch them. Although Dancer in the Dark wasnt as great as i was expecting (Christy was raving about it), but it was so sad, and powerful. I love movies where i come out ... feeling.
friday five time
What one thing are you most looking forward to . . .
1. ...today?
getting better
2. ...over the next week?
wonderland tomorrow
3. ...this year?
travelling
4. ...over the next five years?
love
5. ...for the rest of your life?
family and getting old
ugh. boring
Im staying home on the first friday of the new year. great for my pocket, but crap other wise.
I've been sitting infront of the computer ALL day not doing anything remotely productive - and i want to get off now but i want to listen to all these albums (Jill Scott, John Butler Trio, Bjork, Musiq). I only have mp3s and my room is on the other side of the house and i cant listen dammit. Looks like i'll be here for a while.
I'm getting fat again. My weight is doing all sorts of circus tricks. Need to stay consistant. Size 8 size 8 size 8 size 8 size 8 - it calls me.
Wow. 2 straight weeks of no communication. Thats gotta be a record right there. And i know he's not thinking of me because he has his "distraction". Damn him. And these dreams! These dreams i've had every single friggin night for about a week. UGH!!! GO AWAY MOTHER FUCKERRRRR. JUST FUCK OFF!!
eheh ok. Bye
Thursday, January 08, 2004
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
im freaking out.
i keep having to remind myself that im in the REAL WORLD now. goddamit, REAL WORLD. I've been working for 6 months, but it's only today that i go smacked upside my head because my company is doing some major refocusing and i - I! need to input on strategies on systems. *bites nails*
No more procrastinating. no excuses for not having done a report in time. no "but my teachers cool, he'll give me an extension". no "i forgot it on my kitchen table" crap.
this is what my education and social skills have worked me up to. argh!! its all happening and im freaking out.
*breathe*
i really am here. it's amazing.
im scared...
i keep having to remind myself that im in the REAL WORLD now. goddamit, REAL WORLD. I've been working for 6 months, but it's only today that i go smacked upside my head because my company is doing some major refocusing and i - I! need to input on strategies on systems. *bites nails*
No more procrastinating. no excuses for not having done a report in time. no "but my teachers cool, he'll give me an extension". no "i forgot it on my kitchen table" crap.
this is what my education and social skills have worked me up to. argh!! its all happening and im freaking out.
*breathe*
i really am here. it's amazing.
im scared...
Tuesday, January 06, 2004
I asked my dad for $1000 today. "For what?" he said. I says i need it to support my drug addiction.
he looked at me
silence
we both burst out in laughter.
hey. it was worth a try.
no really. i really do need $1000. since when did i start paying for my own education? Gah. damn being more independant.
------
i'm getting signs around me that is highlighting my lack of spiritual guidance.
i am agnostic. i believe in a higher being but i don't know its' purpose. i do not believe in most catholic church teachings. i think the bible is rediculous. i believe in being a better person in general. i believe Gods gives us the choice to believe in him in any shape or form. Because ultimately, we all believe in the same God. I favour the buddist way of life; we live each life so that our next life will be better - closer to "nirvana".
i think its time i find the light.
but i will not go to hillsong. *coughCULTcough*
i dunno. its not for me. either way, we still all believe in the same god.
I still love the quote from "The Color Purple" that i have quoted once before in a previous blog... it is along the lines of ...
" ..god gets pissed off if you walk through a field of flowers and don't stop to smell them.."
i like that. i like it alot.
anyway. life is great.
except, i don't know if i like myself.
ha. another blog for another day.
toodles.
he looked at me
silence
we both burst out in laughter.
hey. it was worth a try.
no really. i really do need $1000. since when did i start paying for my own education? Gah. damn being more independant.
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i'm getting signs around me that is highlighting my lack of spiritual guidance.
i am agnostic. i believe in a higher being but i don't know its' purpose. i do not believe in most catholic church teachings. i think the bible is rediculous. i believe in being a better person in general. i believe Gods gives us the choice to believe in him in any shape or form. Because ultimately, we all believe in the same God. I favour the buddist way of life; we live each life so that our next life will be better - closer to "nirvana".
i think its time i find the light.
but i will not go to hillsong. *coughCULTcough*
i dunno. its not for me. either way, we still all believe in the same god.
I still love the quote from "The Color Purple" that i have quoted once before in a previous blog... it is along the lines of ...
" ..god gets pissed off if you walk through a field of flowers and don't stop to smell them.."
i like that. i like it alot.
anyway. life is great.
except, i don't know if i like myself.
ha. another blog for another day.
toodles.
Monday, January 05, 2004
2003 in review
1. What did you did in 2003 that you'd never done before?
work full time,
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
no. yes.
1 - get my p's!
2 - work up my CD collection (finally)
3 - get a new wardrobe
4 - go sky diving/parasailing - something extreme. maybe all of the above
5 - stay size 8. (go back to size 8 and stay there) and stay fit. yeah
6 - work up my book collection
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
my auntie Edna to Jewel.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
no
5. What countries did you visit?
nada
6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
my p's.
confidence gained from myself
size 8 body
flat stomach
toned arms
7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
september 12. the day i was free.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
doing everything the noble way.
9. What was your biggest failure?
.... i've done things wrong, but failure? such a harsh word.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
yeah. my ankles felt like acid seeped freely through it. ew
11. What was the best thing you bought?
my phone.
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Mine and Jams.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
The "boys"
14. Where did most of your money go?
beer and going out. Being with friends :)
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Byron Bay. Dennis' Birthday. My Birthday. Everyones 21st. :D
16. What songs will always remind you of 2003?
frontin - pharell
beyonce - crazy in love
jack johnson - flake
luther vandross - i'd rather
other stupid r&b songs.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
thinner or fatter?
thinner
richer or poorer?
richer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
stay home, excerice, cook
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
getting drunk, going out, drinking beer.
20. How did you spend christmas?
with my family and my uncle dressed up as santa. :)
22. Did you fall in love in 2003?
no. i was IN love, but thats another story.
23. How many one night stands?
1
24. What were your favorite TV programs?
Queer Eye for a straight guy, Queer as Folk, Secret Life of Us
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No.
26. What was the best book you read?
The Great Gatsby
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Elliot Smith, Jack Johnson, Jeff Buckley - folk rock, beatle-esque stuff :)
28. What did you want and get?
the have my shoulders lifted from burden
29. What did you want and not get?
to love and be loved in return.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
the life of david gale
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
went to a teppenyaki restaurant and to sydney rsl. i turned 20
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
...? i was happy as is.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
funky/glam. who knows. im pretty screwed
34. What kept you sane?
blogger baby.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
britney
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
the war
37. Who did you miss?
albury whores and romeo
38. Who was the best new person you met?
.......
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003.
put your foot down.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
sometimes a man gets carried away, when he feels like he should be having his fun
much too blind to see the damage he's done
oh sometimes a man must awake to find that really he has noone.
so i wait for you.
and i'll burn
and i wonder if i'll ever see your
sweet return
its never over - a kingdon for a kiss upon her shoulder
its never over - all my riches for her smiles when i slept so soft against her
its never over - all my blood for the sweetness for her laughter
its never over - shes a tear that hangs inside my soul forever
(jeff buckley - lover, you shouldve come over)
1. What did you did in 2003 that you'd never done before?
work full time,
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
no. yes.
1 - get my p's!
2 - work up my CD collection (finally)
3 - get a new wardrobe
4 - go sky diving/parasailing - something extreme. maybe all of the above
5 - stay size 8. (go back to size 8 and stay there) and stay fit. yeah
6 - work up my book collection
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
my auntie Edna to Jewel.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
no
5. What countries did you visit?
nada
6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
my p's.
confidence gained from myself
size 8 body
flat stomach
toned arms
7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
september 12. the day i was free.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
doing everything the noble way.
9. What was your biggest failure?
.... i've done things wrong, but failure? such a harsh word.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
yeah. my ankles felt like acid seeped freely through it. ew
11. What was the best thing you bought?
my phone.
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Mine and Jams.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
The "boys"
14. Where did most of your money go?
beer and going out. Being with friends :)
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Byron Bay. Dennis' Birthday. My Birthday. Everyones 21st. :D
16. What songs will always remind you of 2003?
frontin - pharell
beyonce - crazy in love
jack johnson - flake
luther vandross - i'd rather
other stupid r&b songs.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
thinner or fatter?
thinner
richer or poorer?
richer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
stay home, excerice, cook
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
getting drunk, going out, drinking beer.
20. How did you spend christmas?
with my family and my uncle dressed up as santa. :)
22. Did you fall in love in 2003?
no. i was IN love, but thats another story.
23. How many one night stands?
1
24. What were your favorite TV programs?
Queer Eye for a straight guy, Queer as Folk, Secret Life of Us
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No.
26. What was the best book you read?
The Great Gatsby
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Elliot Smith, Jack Johnson, Jeff Buckley - folk rock, beatle-esque stuff :)
28. What did you want and get?
the have my shoulders lifted from burden
29. What did you want and not get?
to love and be loved in return.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
the life of david gale
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
went to a teppenyaki restaurant and to sydney rsl. i turned 20
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
...? i was happy as is.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
funky/glam. who knows. im pretty screwed
34. What kept you sane?
blogger baby.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
britney
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
the war
37. Who did you miss?
albury whores and romeo
38. Who was the best new person you met?
.......
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003.
put your foot down.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
sometimes a man gets carried away, when he feels like he should be having his fun
much too blind to see the damage he's done
oh sometimes a man must awake to find that really he has noone.
so i wait for you.
and i'll burn
and i wonder if i'll ever see your
sweet return
its never over - a kingdon for a kiss upon her shoulder
its never over - all my riches for her smiles when i slept so soft against her
its never over - all my blood for the sweetness for her laughter
its never over - shes a tear that hangs inside my soul forever
(jeff buckley - lover, you shouldve come over)
Sunday, January 04, 2004
BYRON BAY 2003/2004
Attendees: Kaz, Sarah, Danio, Christie, Beth, Ingrid, Jonny, Drew and Rob.
saturday 27th
-went out and had dinner at a local pizza place.
-made our way to the Beach Hotel, decided the place was crap so we went for a walk on the beach and decided to drink up at the apartment instead.
sunday 28th
-intense game of "have you ever". People actually get turned on by sucking toes. hrm
- "Lend me some suga, i AM your neighbour!! Shake it-- sha sha sha shake it"
- "Lets get retarrrrrded"
- Ingrid and I jumped the fence and went to talk to the people in the camp site next to our apartment.
- Supposed to go to a Club called Cheeky Monkeys. Ingrid and I were leading and got lost.
- Made friends with "Chris" and "Allisson" and a few other people from sydney.
- Scored free drinks from Chris.
- Jonny found us - cheeky monkeys was closed - headed off home
- Went to Chris' place first and stole CK undies from a communial clothes line - thought it'd be fun to run around with it on my head
- limbo styles
- went home
- Guys from Sarahs/Christies uni were there. chat chat chat. drink drink drink
- sleep sleep sleep
monday 29th
- i forgot what happened here
tuesday 30th
- i forgot what happened here as well
wednesday 31st
- WHAT A FUCKING WAY TO START THE NEW YEAR!!!! This night was AMAZING!
- Shots/drinks at home. Drunk as a skunk!
- Made our way to Beach Hotel
- Droobles "fed" me a pill
- Didnt do anything so decided to take some more
- Christies pill accidently landed in Sarahs drink that she downed
- Sarah was peaking like a nut case
- THEN Beth screams out that its 11:45 "lets run down ther beach for count down!" so i run thinking that every one is following me. Noone did. I got lost. thousands and thousands of people everywhere is it was INSANE. Turned out the time was only 9:45 and everyone was still in the same place. I was so upset. i cried. Although i met some HOT tourists on the way through because everyone thought i was Norwegian (I was wearing Ingrids Norwegian flags) "No dammit! Im from NORWEEGA!" haha. Went back to base camp. Have some more to drink. Everyone holds hands from now one so no one (i.e. me) - gets lost, again.
- sit around for a while. pop some more.
- sitting there enjoying the tree on the beach with hundreds of growsticks hanging from it. Ooo perty.
- it finally is count down - walk down to the beach and everyone holding hands
- THOUSANDS of people on the beach!!! It was the craziest thing i have EVER EVER EVER seen! Imagine Mobile Home at bondi in 2000 - this was 3 times CRAZIER!!!!
- No count down, but amazing fireworks felt like it was going to fall on us. Everyone doing the ooos and aaahs.
- Drew and Sarah FINALLY got together. Magical!!
- fireworks finish and walking barefooted along the shore.
- Ameteur fireworks setting off on the beach.
- went home to collect towels etc.
- Lay on the beach... everyone else but Christie, Drew and I left.
- made a circle of love with our glow sticks
- it happened to work because everyone who walked passed decided to pass out for a little while in our circle before being on their merry way.
- Hallucinating on the beach and making pictures with stars
- i total of 3 shooting stars!
- was supposed to watch the sun rise, but realised we were on the wrong beach and facing the wrong way. 4 hours later - we decided to run home to watch world idol.
- The sun was up, but coming up from behind up... doh
- get home, dammit realise world idol wasnt on today.
- mean while, rob was by him self for the whole night, and ingrid went home at 11:30?!
- chatted, tried to sleep .. slept
- HAPPY NEW YEARS EYYY.
jan 1st
- spent the entire day scattered as recuperating
- scattered and decided to watch ROTK.
- Feel asleep first 15 minutes.
- didnt really like it (soz Jammo!)
jan 2nd
- beached it at Watego, the most beautiful beach and area in Byron.
- shopped...
- dinner at Fish Heads that A La carte seafood restaurant.
- Not a Happy Kazza that night, not at all
- Went to Cheeky Monkeys
- That place was a fkn sauna! Health Hazard!! So HOT it was unbelievable!
- Got the flu as localers said you would. "If you go to cheeky Monkeys you come out with the flu". They were right.
jan 3rd
- home.
- goddamn traffic. 30ks in 3 hours!!!!!
ANYHOOO... Byron was fun..some times. I did learn alot though - not going to try to lead with such controlling friends, i'm not going to be so generous with people who i know wont do the same for me, not going to let myself be walked over. and i made 2 great new friends. I witnessed a love that has potential to blossom (finally) and i finally stood up for myself. Woohoo!
What a week.
2004 is definatly going to be different. I've put up with enough shit - never again.
Attendees: Kaz, Sarah, Danio, Christie, Beth, Ingrid, Jonny, Drew and Rob.
saturday 27th
-went out and had dinner at a local pizza place.
-made our way to the Beach Hotel, decided the place was crap so we went for a walk on the beach and decided to drink up at the apartment instead.
sunday 28th
-intense game of "have you ever". People actually get turned on by sucking toes. hrm
- "Lend me some suga, i AM your neighbour!! Shake it-- sha sha sha shake it"
- "Lets get retarrrrrded"
- Ingrid and I jumped the fence and went to talk to the people in the camp site next to our apartment.
- Supposed to go to a Club called Cheeky Monkeys. Ingrid and I were leading and got lost.
- Made friends with "Chris" and "Allisson" and a few other people from sydney.
- Scored free drinks from Chris.
- Jonny found us - cheeky monkeys was closed - headed off home
- Went to Chris' place first and stole CK undies from a communial clothes line - thought it'd be fun to run around with it on my head
- limbo styles
- went home
- Guys from Sarahs/Christies uni were there. chat chat chat. drink drink drink
- sleep sleep sleep
monday 29th
- i forgot what happened here
tuesday 30th
- i forgot what happened here as well
wednesday 31st
- WHAT A FUCKING WAY TO START THE NEW YEAR!!!! This night was AMAZING!
- Shots/drinks at home. Drunk as a skunk!
- Made our way to Beach Hotel
- Droobles "fed" me a pill
- Didnt do anything so decided to take some more
- Christies pill accidently landed in Sarahs drink that she downed
- Sarah was peaking like a nut case
- THEN Beth screams out that its 11:45 "lets run down ther beach for count down!" so i run thinking that every one is following me. Noone did. I got lost. thousands and thousands of people everywhere is it was INSANE. Turned out the time was only 9:45 and everyone was still in the same place. I was so upset. i cried. Although i met some HOT tourists on the way through because everyone thought i was Norwegian (I was wearing Ingrids Norwegian flags) "No dammit! Im from NORWEEGA!" haha. Went back to base camp. Have some more to drink. Everyone holds hands from now one so no one (i.e. me) - gets lost, again.
- sit around for a while. pop some more.
- sitting there enjoying the tree on the beach with hundreds of growsticks hanging from it. Ooo perty.
- it finally is count down - walk down to the beach and everyone holding hands
- THOUSANDS of people on the beach!!! It was the craziest thing i have EVER EVER EVER seen! Imagine Mobile Home at bondi in 2000 - this was 3 times CRAZIER!!!!
- No count down, but amazing fireworks felt like it was going to fall on us. Everyone doing the ooos and aaahs.
- Drew and Sarah FINALLY got together. Magical!!
- fireworks finish and walking barefooted along the shore.
- Ameteur fireworks setting off on the beach.
- went home to collect towels etc.
- Lay on the beach... everyone else but Christie, Drew and I left.
- made a circle of love with our glow sticks
- it happened to work because everyone who walked passed decided to pass out for a little while in our circle before being on their merry way.
- Hallucinating on the beach and making pictures with stars
- i total of 3 shooting stars!
- was supposed to watch the sun rise, but realised we were on the wrong beach and facing the wrong way. 4 hours later - we decided to run home to watch world idol.
- The sun was up, but coming up from behind up... doh
- get home, dammit realise world idol wasnt on today.
- mean while, rob was by him self for the whole night, and ingrid went home at 11:30?!
- chatted, tried to sleep .. slept
- HAPPY NEW YEARS EYYY.
jan 1st
- spent the entire day scattered as recuperating
- scattered and decided to watch ROTK.
- Feel asleep first 15 minutes.
- didnt really like it (soz Jammo!)
jan 2nd
- beached it at Watego, the most beautiful beach and area in Byron.
- shopped...
- dinner at Fish Heads that A La carte seafood restaurant.
- Not a Happy Kazza that night, not at all
- Went to Cheeky Monkeys
- That place was a fkn sauna! Health Hazard!! So HOT it was unbelievable!
- Got the flu as localers said you would. "If you go to cheeky Monkeys you come out with the flu". They were right.
jan 3rd
- home.
- goddamn traffic. 30ks in 3 hours!!!!!
ANYHOOO... Byron was fun..some times. I did learn alot though - not going to try to lead with such controlling friends, i'm not going to be so generous with people who i know wont do the same for me, not going to let myself be walked over. and i made 2 great new friends. I witnessed a love that has potential to blossom (finally) and i finally stood up for myself. Woohoo!
What a week.
2004 is definatly going to be different. I've put up with enough shit - never again.
IM BACK! and thank friggin goodness! I had a ball, but at the same time my patience wore thin after the week of maddness/relaxation, so much that on our last night at eating at an a la carte seafood restaurant on the beach at Byron, drunk as a skunk - i blew it. Absolutely blew it at Dani and Sarah yelling and screaming and getting the filthiest looks from the poshies from the area. I didnt care, i needed to let it out - i was getting so sick and tierd and being treated like .. like.. i dunno. Not as well as i deserve. I stormed out and let them do what they wanted to do despite me saying it ten billions times - never listening to a word i say. So much shit like that happened that week, i got fed up. I'm not meant to be a born leader - i'm made to be a sheep. a drone. a cow. follow the pack. not happy. not at all. Bah.
This year is going to be different. I'm going to make myself be heard. I'm not going to take things lightly, not let myself me walked on, let people think that i am easily satisfied. Although it one of my main characteristics - i don't like confrontation, i don't like people arguing, but i'm not going to let them think that they can have it all their way. Its a lesson learnt for both parties. Hmph.
PHEW. Just had to get that off my chest because the 14 hour drive back in the car (damn RTA/traffice/holidayers) was the longest 14 hours of my life. Just so glad to be home.
I did have an awesome time - its a shame that one thing had kind stuck to my mind about the entire Byron Bay experience. I definately learnt alot in that week. *nods*
I'll do a thorough recount on my week tomorrow. I think its absolutely safe to say that i had THE BEST NEW YEARS EVE EVER!!!!!!!! Magical i tells ya. I was amazing!! I think any new years after this would be pretty hard to top.
:) ok. going to rest. im sick, feverish and exhausted. AND, i have work on monday. Farking oath. Gnight space cadets.
This year is going to be different. I'm going to make myself be heard. I'm not going to take things lightly, not let myself me walked on, let people think that i am easily satisfied. Although it one of my main characteristics - i don't like confrontation, i don't like people arguing, but i'm not going to let them think that they can have it all their way. Its a lesson learnt for both parties. Hmph.
PHEW. Just had to get that off my chest because the 14 hour drive back in the car (damn RTA/traffice/holidayers) was the longest 14 hours of my life. Just so glad to be home.
I did have an awesome time - its a shame that one thing had kind stuck to my mind about the entire Byron Bay experience. I definately learnt alot in that week. *nods*
I'll do a thorough recount on my week tomorrow. I think its absolutely safe to say that i had THE BEST NEW YEARS EVE EVER!!!!!!!! Magical i tells ya. I was amazing!! I think any new years after this would be pretty hard to top.
:) ok. going to rest. im sick, feverish and exhausted. AND, i have work on monday. Farking oath. Gnight space cadets.
kaz :) 20/f/syd this is my world - you all just live in it.
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